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Find Me

A Novel

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"Alafair Burke's latest propulsive thrill-ride is a suspenseful, twisty mystery about memory, friendship and secrets. A page-turner of the highest order." -Laura Dave, author of The Last Thing He Told Me

The disappearance of a young woman leaves her best friend reeling and an NYPD homicide detective digging into her own past in this twisty mystery about the power of female friendships. From the New York Times bestselling author of The Better Sister and The Wife.

Some pasts won't stay forgotten . . .

She calls herself Hope Miller, but she has no idea who she actually is. Fifteen years ago, she was found in a small New Jersey town thrown from an overturned vehicle, with no clue to her identity. Doctors assumed her amnesia was a temporary side effect of her injuries, but she never regained her memory. Hope eventually started a new life with a new name in a new town that welcomed her, yet always wondered what she may have left behind—or been running from. Now, she's leaving New Jersey to start over once again.

Manhattan defense lawyer Lindsay Kelly, Hope's best friend and the one who found her after the accident, understands why Hope wants a new beginning. But she worries how her friend will fare in her new East Hampton home, far away from everything familiar. Lindsay's worst fears are confirmed when she discovers Hope has vanished without a trace—the only lead a drop of blood found where she was last seen. Even more ominously, the blood matches a DNA sample with a connection to a notorious Kansas murderer.

With nowhere else to turn, Lindsay calls NYPD homicide detective Ellie Hatcher, the daughter of the cop who dedicated his life to hunting the Kansas killer. Ellie has always believed there was more to the story of her father's death twenty years earlier—and she now fears that Hope's recent disappearance could be related.

In pursuit of answers, the women search for the truth beneath long-buried secrets. And when their searches converge, what they find will upend everything they've ever known.

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    • Kirkus

      November 15, 2021
      A mystery featuring a woman with amnesia in New Jersey, a drowned fishing guide on Long Island, a 15-year-old cold case in Wichita, and much more. In her 19th mystery, and the sixth to feature detective Ellie Hatcher, Burke has taken the kitchen-sink approach, offering a rare abundance of characters, crimes, and misdemeanors. As much as there is a protagonist, it is a woman who, years ago, was thrown from an SUV in Hopewell, New Jersey, and lost her memory. Hope Miller, as she is now known, has spent the past decade and a half under the wing of a devoted friend she met after the accident, an attorney named Lindsay who lives with a boyfriend named Scott. But as the story opens, Hope has disappeared from Hopewell without leaving Lindsay any information as to her whereabouts. Since she has no legal identity, Hope has to work under the radar; she finds a job staging properties on the East End of Long Island for a sketchy real estate agent named...oh well, turns out he's not that important. Meanwhile, there's Ellie Hatcher, the detective whose series this is. She's on vacation in St. Barth's with her boyfriend, Max, having bad dreams about her dad, a cop who committed suicide because he couldn't find Wichita's College Hill Strangler, who was later arrested and jailed. Then there's this giant home improvement chain also based in Wichita whose female CEO is running for senator...and wait, there's more! This novel seems more like the work of a beginning crime writer than one with Burke's experience. Clues, red herrings, exposition, and "things you should know" are dropped in awkwardly and obviously: "Lindsay had learned that psychological trauma or post-traumatic stress disorder could also induce dissociative fugue, or what used to be called a fugue state--a psychological condition characterized by an inability to recall one's identity or personality." All this hand-holding aside, the book operates on what feels like a kind of anti-Occam's-razor logic, favoring the most complicated solution to any question. The good news is, there is one. For those who like a tricky brain teaser and aren't too picky about interesting characters or emotional realism.

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    • Publisher's Weekly

      Starred review from November 15, 2021
      The fate of Hope Miller, as her friends in Hopewell, N.J., know her, drives Edgar finalist Burke’s scintillating sixth novel featuring NYPD Det. Ellie Hatcher (after 2014’s All Day and a Night). Fifteen years earlier, Manhattan defense lawyer Lindsay Kelly pulled Hope, who had lost her memory, out of an overturned vehicle on a road near Hopewell. Lyndsay became Hope’s best friend, mentor, and protector. Now, in search of a fresh start, Hope moves to East Hampton, Long Island. Lindsay’s fears that her friend will be lost without her are quickly realized after Hope disappears, the only clue a drop of blood matching a DNA sample related to a Wichita, Kans., serial killer. The subsequent death of an East Hampton businessman leads the police to believe Hope is not a victim but a villain. Enter Ellie, whose late father was so obsessed with his investigation into the Wichita serial killer that he died by suicide. While Hope and Lindsay’s deep friendship takes center stage, Ellie’s intelligence, insight, and lingering grief over her father will keep readers turning the pages. Appealing characters match the meticulous plotting. Burke reinforces her place in the top rank of suspense writers. Agent: Anne-Lise Spitzer, Philip Spitzer Literary.

    • Booklist

      December 1, 2021
      Defense attorney Lindsay Kelly battles skeptical detectives and buried secrets after her best friend's suspicious disappearance. Lindsay and Hope Mills have been like sisters since Lindsay rescued Hope from a car accident and helped her manage life with lingering amnesia. Now, despite finding traces of blood at the scene of Hope's disappearance, East Hampton PD detective Carter Decker is dismissive. Decker's suspicion that Hope's amnesia is a cover for a long con gains credence when local fishing guide Alex Lopez is murdered and Decker uproots troubling connections between Lopez and Hope's shrouded past. In a perplexing turn, the blood found at the site of Hope's disappearance matches a sample taken a decade ago in the College Hill Strangler case. Lindsay teams with NYPD detective Ellie Hatcher, whose father investigated the College Hill murders, and they discover a high-stakes cover-up tangled in Ellie and Hope's pasts. A skillfully constructed, delightfully twisty thriller powered by Burke's trademark strong, relatable heroines and realistic foes; recommended this one to fans of Lisa Gardner, Karin Slaughter, and Lisa Scottoline.

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    • AudioFile Magazine
      Narrator Kathleen Early shines in this twisty, compelling listen. Hope Miller was in a car accident 15 years earlier and has no memory of her past. Lindsay Kelly, who found Hope at the accident site, became her best friend, and Hope became part of Lindsay's community. In the present day, Hope seeks independence with a new job and a move to East Hampton. But within a few weeks, Hope goes missing, and Lindsay is determined to find her. She teams up with NYPD Detective Ellie Hatcher, and they discover that a recent murder is connected to multiple crimes in the past. Early creates distinctive characteristics for these memorable characters and provides tones and pacing that reflect the urgency of Lindsay's efforts to find Hope and unravel the lies that surround her. K.S.M. © AudioFile 2022, Portland, Maine
    • Library Journal

      June 1, 2022

      This is Burke's seventh stand-alone novel, but it features the sixth appearance of a character whom Burke fans know and love: NYPD detective Ellie Hatcher. In this new thriller, Hope Miller cannot remember her name, her identity, or any part of her previous life because of a car crash 15 years earlier. Lindsay Kelly, who found Hope in her overturned SUV, befriends her, becomes her protector, and tries to help her start a new life in Hopewell, NJ. When Hope moves to East Hampton to get a fresh start, she severs her ties with a devastated Lindsay, who's certain that Hope will not be able to survive without her help. When Hope becomes the last person to have contact with a murdered businessman, police name her a person of interest and assign Ellie to the case. All the subplots come together in the startling conclusion. Narrator Kathleen Early captures the emotion and tension in this psychological thriller well. VERDICT Fans of Burke's "Ellie Hatcher" series will enjoy this latest novel.--Ilka Gordon

      Copyright 2022 Library Journal, LLC Used with permission.

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