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I Am Nobody's Slave

How Uncovering My Family's History Set Me Free

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A 2022 Pulitzer Prize finalist and former Wall Street Journal writer exhaustively examines his family's legacy of post-enslavement trauma and resilience, in this riveting memoir—a soulful, shocking, and spellbinding read that blends the raw power of Natasha Tretheway's Memorial Drive and the insights of Clint Smith's How the Word is Passed.

I Am Nobody's Slave tells the story of one Black family's pursuit of the American Dream through the impacts of systemic racism and racial violence. This book examines how trauma from enslavement and Jim Crow shaped their outlook on thriving in America, influenced each generation, and how they succeeded despite these challenges.

To their suburban Minnesotan neighbors, the Hawkinses were an ideal American family, embodying strength and success. However, behind closed doors, they faced the legacy of enslavement and apartheid. Lee Hawkins, Sr. often exhibited rage, leaving his children anxious and curious about his protective view of the world. Thirty years later, his son uncovered the reasons for his father's anxiety and occasional violence. Through research, he discovered violent deaths in his family for every generation since slavery, mostly due to white-on-Black murders, and how white enslavers impacted the family's customs.

Hawkins explores the role of racism-triggered childhood trauma and chronic stress in shortening his ancestors' lives, using genetic testing, reporting, and historical data to craft a moving family portrait. This book shows how genealogical research can educate and heal Americans of all races, revealing through their story the story of America—a journey of struggle, resilience, and the heavy cost of ultimate success.

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    • Booklist

      November 1, 2024
      In this powerful deep dive into intergenerational trauma through the lens of his family history, Hawkins, host of the podcast What Happened in Alabama? and former editor for the Wall Street Journal, offers an authentic, emotionally evocative look into the ways that slavery, racism, and violence have created ripples that flow from one generation to the next--until someone like Hawkins has the courage to shed light on those dark places where trauma takes hold. Through genealogical research into his ancestors' past and interviews with close family members, Hawkins expertly brings Black history to life, along with statistics reflecting the modern Black experience. Exploring the connections of corporal punishment in parenting practices to the atrocities of slavery, Hawkins compassionately offers readers a fresh narrative and an invitation to heal the future by better understanding the past. Gripping, thought-provoking, and personal, I Am Nobody's Slave will inspire discussion and action in response to its powerful message of inner healing and social justice.

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      Starred review from December 15, 2024
      The long road to achieving Black pride. From start to finish, Hawkins' autobiography is a harrowing and insightful overview of what child abuse looks like from the perspective of a scared Black boy who grows up to become a proud Black man. Making the persuasive claim that Black youths who are emotionally and physically abused by their parents are also victims of white oppression (what he calls a "bondage belief system"), Hawkins sees his scornful father and mother as products of their family histories, which were rife with whippings, hangings, rapes, and other forms of unspeakable violence at the hands of whites, who had Black people perpetuate these heinous acts on their own friends and family. Hawkins is honest in his descriptions of what his parents called his "spankings," which once involved Hawkins' father stepping on his son's neck with his steel-toed boot. Relating these horrific incidents acts as a form of catharsis and a way to relay to readers that, on the basis of his research on his family in Alabama, his parents were victims of "Jim Crow apartheid" in the South, which led to their belligerence and their skewed belief that the injuries they inflicted were for their children's protection. Hawkins does not bestow forgiveness in this work, but he does leave readers with a better understanding of unhealthy forms of love and the genealogies that produce them. A profound work about the Black experience and white oppression.

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    • Library Journal

      December 1, 2024

      Hawkins, a Pulitzer Prize finalist and former Wall Street Journal writer, considers his family history and how systemic racism, enslavement, and racial violence have affected each generation, using his legacy to remark upon the history of the nation. With a 75K-copy first printing. Prepub Alert.

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      Copyright 2024 Library Journal, LLC Used with permission.

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